WELCOME

I’m a great woman with a pissed-off vulva. I have “primary vestibulitis." Most people are uncomfortable discussing their genital pain in public. Well, I’m not…so, welcome to my blog! There aren’t definitive answers in medical literature to explain the pain cycle of pelvic pain and how to heal it - yet. My hope is that my 21-year obsession to find help for myself will make your experience shorter, easier, and less painful. P.S. Recently "vestibulitis" has been renamed to "vestibulodynia."

PTSD from Sexual Abuse

I have had people say to me that my vestibulitis is the result of past emotional trauma. In my case, sexual molestation as a child. I had dismissed this entirely because I know it is a true physical disorder. However, I am now looking into PTSD as a contributor.

When I was molested by a teacher in 4th grade, I had to sit on his lap many hours each day. In response, I contracted my pelvic muscles tightly to try to elevate myself off his lap and that may have begun a muscle pattern that I continue today. As I have mentioned in other posts, chronic muscle tightness can compress nerves and cut down on blood flow that keeps your vulva healthy.

I am reading "The Body Keeps The Score" which is excellent and focuses on the physical effects and the physical healing of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I am also considering doing EMDR - a therapy based in rapid eye movement to access and resolve trauma. I guess I am just posting this because after many years of dismissing this part of my history and saying that I was over it, I am now exploring the idea.