We are Kegel-ing which I never before understood because I was too weak to do it. Basic concept is to pull in your clitoris, vagina, and anus all tight. Then before you start shaking with weakness and lack of control, relax completely. Like really completely. This is perhaps more important than the Kegel itself - to get that release of the muscles of the pelvic floor.
She has a computer with a picture of a rose. The Kegel is trying to get the rose to close up and be a bud; the release is trying to get that rose as open and large as you can. I experimented with different thoughts: envisioning the rose, making my mind blank, thinking of my pelvic floor opening. The biofeedback machine gives you numbers as your muscle tension releases or increases.
First session: Not great, but okay.
Second session: Pretty darn good, all things considered.
Third session: Awful. Also, P.T. is taking away from my normal exercise/relaxation time so that is at odds. I am hanging in there, but hope to become more independent. If anyone knows of a biofeedback machine place, I am ready to rent or buy.
My psychotherapist and I will discuss "butt clenching" in our next session. The butt clenching, as I understand it for myself, is related to anxiety, mechanical instability and habit.